Feeling like a fraud.

Last night we were out with a really amazing older couple. Both of whom are very successful, very intelligent, and very interesting. People who you would love to emulate and be like one day.  During the dinner I couldnt help but think, why do these people even want to hang out with me?? I am not smart or interesting like them. I don't feel worthy of their prescence. I don't feel like one of those amazing people they talk about, I feel like a fraud, and that once they really get to know me they will see that too. That I am not as interesting, not as smart, not a funny as I seem.  

Sometimes I have the thought in my relationship as well. I am now with a super smart guy, who is well travelled, well cultured, and very charismatic. In the past, I was always the "smart one" in the relationship, and now I feel like the one who has so much catching up to do. And again, I think, why does he even want to be with me? I have not travelled as much as him, I don't know that much, I can't express things like he does. 

The thought that keeps me going is, they must see something in me that I cannot yet see in myself. I hope they see the potential in me of what I can be, when I finally realize and accept that I too am worthy of good things and success.


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