Last day of 31...
I was startled awake this morning when L asked me, "anything you want to do on your last day of being 31?" I gasped in a state of panic, then slowly calmed down. It is interesting with birthdays, most of us look ahead, which is probably the better thing to do, but today I looked back. Instead of moving forward to 32, it is my last day of being 31. It brought me a little more perspective and gratefulness this morning, and a short moment of fear!
Fear? Fear because I am slowly losing my youthful body, skin, hair, fear because deep down I don't want to get "old".
Once I snapped back into reality I started focusing on the now. Thinking about how, at the moment, I am living my dream. Working abroad in the job I wanted, speaking another language and traveling. Did I mention I have almost filled up my passport??! At the moment, I am in great shape again, I am the same size I have been since high school, I'm still playing sports and running a 10k race next month. I have an awesome supportive partner to navigate life with and my family is healthy and I have the means to visit when ever I want to! I have hobbies and some new friends here as well. And we have created our ideal retreat to come home to everyday. I am also celebrating 5 years of being in chiropractic practice, and paying off my student loan in full this month!! Together L and I have accomplished so much.
I am so grateful for my life thus far. So you see, looking back from time to time can be good, but staying focused on the now, on how great everything is at the present moment, is so important! Especially for those of us who have difficulty seeing what we really have sometimes.
Looking ahead, for the next year of my life I would like to be able to be more selective about the patients I see, as in seeing more patients from my niche area, instead of seeing everybody, to take myself more seriously so that others also take me seriously professionally, to be more productive in my downtime, and to continue to appreciate my body and health exactly where it is at the moment and to always nurture it.
Being 31 might have been my best year yet! I am looking forward to what I can accomplish with 32.
Fear? Fear because I am slowly losing my youthful body, skin, hair, fear because deep down I don't want to get "old".
Once I snapped back into reality I started focusing on the now. Thinking about how, at the moment, I am living my dream. Working abroad in the job I wanted, speaking another language and traveling. Did I mention I have almost filled up my passport??! At the moment, I am in great shape again, I am the same size I have been since high school, I'm still playing sports and running a 10k race next month. I have an awesome supportive partner to navigate life with and my family is healthy and I have the means to visit when ever I want to! I have hobbies and some new friends here as well. And we have created our ideal retreat to come home to everyday. I am also celebrating 5 years of being in chiropractic practice, and paying off my student loan in full this month!! Together L and I have accomplished so much.
I am so grateful for my life thus far. So you see, looking back from time to time can be good, but staying focused on the now, on how great everything is at the present moment, is so important! Especially for those of us who have difficulty seeing what we really have sometimes.
Looking ahead, for the next year of my life I would like to be able to be more selective about the patients I see, as in seeing more patients from my niche area, instead of seeing everybody, to take myself more seriously so that others also take me seriously professionally, to be more productive in my downtime, and to continue to appreciate my body and health exactly where it is at the moment and to always nurture it.
Being 31 might have been my best year yet! I am looking forward to what I can accomplish with 32.
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